Facebook

It's funny, I love to read facebook; but quite frankly I am tired of hearing about their childrens diseases and how it is just the end of the world. Well it's not! These people revolve their lives around these diseases and forget about what it is to live life. Live your life, do the important things but don't drag the kids out for awareness day, nobody but other people with the same shit really give a care so what are you really doing...advertising to people who already are affected... I guess I just don't get it but maybe I never will. I want my kids to fit in, I want my kids to have a great life, if that means ignoring the Marfans or Asbergers I will, take your medicine, keep your self healthy but go on and do something fun...Stop bringing it up in every breathe...
Moving on..
Still facebook;
I get sick of the people that always have the sappy updates, like their lives are puppies and rainbows.. Give me a break! Just really a couple of individuals. Don't even know why I keep them as friends but I have decided to keep them to keep the friend count up..Ha ha...not really but I am looking to trim a few...I get sick of the ones that announce they are going to trim their facebook, like you shouldn't of added them in the first place, why bother now! LMAO
So I stayed away from bloggin for awhile. I started a new job and really wanted to block off my blog until they liked me and I didn't feel threatened. Or Something like that... I guess they like me enough, they keep me for now and they don't kick me so I am better than a dog at this point! 
So here it is... my new hair cut!

Thanks Joe!

Stole this off of a "Christian" from our town. I am so glad that he did his ridiculous blog or I would not have record of the most tasty and delicious meals my family had all that winter. I personally don't get why any one would get "grossed" out but I get it... They get their meat at Krogers. Have no idea of all the hormones, flavorings, pesticides, preservatives they are eating. I love that the picture was taken and stored for me to enjoy once again! 

Brothers Darin, left, and Chad Pantle dress out an eight-point buck along Jefferson Street Monday. Chad, who took the buck with his muzzleloader Thanksgiving Day, plans to have the head mounted.

Septemberish

You often forget what you are getting into until you remember the last time you were there, or that just seems to be my problem. I allow my self to push memories out of my mind until damn bamm there it is again... I hate that feeling. My husband usually has a good enough memory that I don't get stuck in that but this time he let me forget. Or I forgot to say but regardless I know what I am talking about.... I think most of it is that I have allowed myslef to stop sharing with him cause all he does is over react. Not his fault, oh yes it is... Wild crazy family! Can't forget where you come from.
It isn't 6 am yet and I have gotten more done this morning that I have done the entire week. I made some muffins for the kids for breakfast. Made coffee, cleaned up the dishes and had time to get in about 3 cups of coffee and it takes really good. I probably will crash at 10 but I am living for the moment. Today is my day off.... Yeah... but really I get irritated that I am the only one who has to get up to go to work sometimes. I know that I shouldn't judge but Jeez... already... full grown adults... grrr. Probably should get off of this point mostly cause it is just irritating me.
I am looking forward to some time this weekend with the hubby and the Chloe. Going to run away and have a fantastic time whether anyone wants to or not.
Chris is on a good mood this week, the med change has been so scary. I try not to get upset but I thought I was gonna have to institutionalize him. Completely flipped his lid coming off of the adderal and switching him to the Intuituv.  His mood has improved this week... Just hope he can try to continue to contain himself. But really I know the medicine is a temporary fix. I know that he must grow and learn to control himself and really let the Nathan out of him.  But regarless of anything I love his heart, it really is sweet and I love him more than life.  He does try sometimes and I really am the only one that gets it that he can't control it all the time. He is still little even though his body is little so is his emotions. He will grow into them I just hope I have showed him that it is not ok to be angry and love is more powerful..

Sunday

As I am not fully awake today, I feel irritated. ALL the children have been gone for the weekend. And what a waste it was. I didn't get anything accomplished but watching TV surfing the web and about an hour of fishing. I have learned something though. We are not the same as we were 10 years ago. It saddens me! We would of taken advantage of the weekend like no other. But here we are going to bed before 10 getting up at sunrise. Loosing the little bit of passion in life we had. It makes me angry when I try to do something special and I get no response. Just so involved in the TV, my words can't be heard! I don't want to be a pity party and I want to figure out how to get out of this mess. I got here and I don't really know how I did but here it is and I am lost. My heart is telling me to hang on but how? Lots of thoughts, Maybe I will pray about it!

Epiphany-Staind

The Weight loss challenge

My husband has decided to stress himself to loose weight, In the beginning I didn't mind he had packed on a few... More like 50 but I was giving him the benefit of the doubt. Let him be in control of his own body. I didn't want to say Hey fat ass you are going to die! Even though I could sometime. I guess I just have never had someone that really gets me frustrated as much as him! GRRR.... Well he has lost 14 lbs. I have lost 16! Not by changing what we are doing, but by moving around more! We had became slow lazy sloths. I think it was from all the weight gain. I am very proud of him but I know he will gain it back if he doesn't try harder in the winter. He loves the turkey dressing broccoli casserole and such. He just can't get enough of the holiday goodies that he founders!
On another note, I read my friends blog again. And yes it was heavy! I think we all need to look back and grab that heaviness and get ahold of it before one day when you are not looking and it slaps you in the face. I guess that really doesn't make much sense to anyone but me but that is how it is.
I am enjoying my sisters visit. I forget about who I am till I get really good doses of her! I am very proud of her, She is trying so hard to be good and watch her diabetes. I love her and it just about kills me to watch her killing herself daily or hearing about it daily! She seems to take some of the stress away but I don't want her taking it on. No need for that. I am a natural worrier. I worry for everyone and anything. I hate it if everything is not going my way I suppose.
The stinkin hot weather is starting to have lasting effects on my brain as I thought today was Wednesday... If the kids can behave I am thinking about taking them to the pool and letting them cool off in the wonderful clear water... I hate the lake!