Sunday

As I am not fully awake today, I feel irritated. ALL the children have been gone for the weekend. And what a waste it was. I didn't get anything accomplished but watching TV surfing the web and about an hour of fishing. I have learned something though. We are not the same as we were 10 years ago. It saddens me! We would of taken advantage of the weekend like no other. But here we are going to bed before 10 getting up at sunrise. Loosing the little bit of passion in life we had. It makes me angry when I try to do something special and I get no response. Just so involved in the TV, my words can't be heard! I don't want to be a pity party and I want to figure out how to get out of this mess. I got here and I don't really know how I did but here it is and I am lost. My heart is telling me to hang on but how? Lots of thoughts, Maybe I will pray about it!