Birthday wishes

My little Chloe turned 5 last week. I think we celebrated the whole damn week. 3 or 4 parties later we have survived. The outlaws and the in laws all were in attendance which in itself is a small miracle. It was wonderful weather and we all had a great time. The kids and their dad came and they decided to act like 3 and 4 years olds, so they didn't get to stay as long as they wanted. I am ready just to relax now. The reason for all the parties? Every year we end up jipping Chloe of a real birthday party because some one has a party to attend. Her birthday is always around Memorial day and she always gets the raw end of the deal. But NO MORE! We (Chad and I) have decided she is our baby, we will do for her and if no one likes it, there will be a party anyway with just the 3 of us.
With the weekend coming to a close. It has been tiring and we are exhausted. We are not used to staying up all night and acting like teenagers. But we did and we survived. If we could do it three nights in a row? No way!! We know we are old and we enjoy the comfort of our own bed.
We did however enjoy a wonderful weekend of fishing. We had great company as my brother in law and sister in law (Darrin and Rene) came down and we headed to Mississenewa. It was a good time. The fish were biting like crazy but Darrin and I didn't catch shit, while Chad and Rene decided they just couldn't get enough! Grrrr. Darrin and I have made a plan to sabotage the next fishing trip, so that we may get a chance!
I miss having fun with my older kids, but they are in a stage where fighting is the game. Their dad has made it his priority this weekend so I don't have to worry... Poor him. Don't you just love the teenage years. And no I wasn't that bad!
Happy Memorial Day!

A sweet suprise

As I start this I wanted to do this just so I can remember and have sweet memories.

Today was a sweet day, I saw my best friend today. It had been so long since I have felt so much love and acceptance and time hadn't changed a thing. I cried as she left. Knowing it will be forever before I get to see her again and I know I never get around to doing anything but what everyone else wants... all the time. Or maybe I cried because I remembered what it felt like to be really loved, not judged and certainly alive. How is it that I can forget and just let life pass by. Well I am tired of that.

Tomorrow is Chloe's birthday, While she wants 2 parties we are only having 1 small and 1 large. Doesn't make sense but hey she is only 5 and time flies and only get to celebrate just once a year.

The family and I went fishing tonight, It was alright. I didn't catch anything again and I thinking of just quitting for the year. I am down in count horribly and it bothers me but I think Chad has hexed me or something like that. He still thinks carp is sport fishing. I hate fishing shows for putting that crap in his head. It really isn't any sport, all you really do is waste your time. I am in for more REAL fish like bass, crappie and even catfish. Forget the carp and dogfish~!

I miss being me.