Today was a sweet day, I saw my best friend today. It had been so long since I have felt so much love and acceptance and time hadn't changed a thing. I cried as she left. Knowing it will be forever before I get to see her again and I know I never get around to doing anything but what everyone else wants... all the time. Or maybe I cried because I remembered what it felt like to be really loved, not judged and certainly alive. How is it that I can forget and just let life pass by. Well I am tired of that.
Tomorrow is Chloe's birthday, While she wants 2 parties we are only having 1 small and 1 large. Doesn't make sense but hey she is only 5 and time flies and only get to celebrate just once a year.
The family and I went fishing tonight, It was alright. I didn't catch anything again and I thinking of just quitting for the year. I am down in count horribly and it bothers me but I think Chad has hexed me or something like that. He still thinks carp is sport fishing. I hate fishing shows for putting that crap in his head. It really isn't any sport, all you really do is waste your time. I am in for more REAL fish like bass, crappie and even catfish. Forget the carp and dogfish~!
I miss being me.
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